Further but no clearer

So... I quit school. Started learning the basics of html through weblearning at the vdab (job guidance and learning government centre). At least there I don't have to pretend to be sick every time I get called up for an interview. They even encourage it! Hurrah! And it's only forenoons, so time left for studying for my driver's licence and scouting the infinite internet for the few scarce editor and communications jobs in my region.

First application didn't work out. Not sad bout it though, wasn't exactly the employer of my dreams. Going for a better one now: writer for a youth lifestyle website. I'd be in charge of the economic part. Interview went well. Now for the personality test and consultant chat this Tuesday... And after that possibly some more goodies: an assessment *shake shake* and another talk with a jury. How fun is that! Nowadays it seems like you have to kill someone in order to get a job (you like). Why did I work so hard the last three years? Only to have to prove myself once again before the eyes of the unwilling recruiters. "Hey, I don't even want your job that bad!"...

All they do is demand and ask for the imposible, while the work circumstances are all but perfect. They never fail to mention that any employee should be flexible, able to cope with stress and assertive. Make no mistake about it: the work floor is a hostile environment. Or at least that's what they make applicants believe. Everybody scaring "us" all the time. "You thought school was tough? Try this!' and similar quotes shake you to the foundation. I thought the hard part was over :-)

Other fun remark: "If you thought applying was hard work, try the first days on the job. Taking in new info at a speed you never thought was possible, including all names and histories of co-workers" *sigh* First there's the head ache and stress from studying, then the powerlessness and frustration the application period brings along, only to arrive at the tiring first days to take over and wear you out. A burn-out at twenty-one never seemed so plausible.

Yes, i am being bleak, and things are usually not as bad as they seem in my head. And of course I make them even more juicy in writing, because normal situations just aren't as interesting. Let's never stop relativating and try to find some calm, peace and self-worth in this hectic world we call home.

Good luck to you all, and may you find happiness in daily life!
x
me

PS: The good part is: NO MORE HOMEWORK! Lovely...